Many of these pieces are drafts. They are research creation explorations of the tangled affects associated with loss and mental health struggles.
I Don't Care if Monday's Blue, 2021; Super 8mm (2:33) I Don't Care if Monday's Blue is about visiting the grave of a dearly departed person through the thick of snow. A woman and her daughter are grieving the departed they lost to suicide. The act is hard to fathom and lives in traces of memory, which the film reflects through the afterimages, the unsteady camera, and the blurriness of the celluloid.
372 steps (or, in April, I left the house a total of two times), 2020; Super 8mm (3:14) 372 steps (or, in April, I left the house a total of two times) documents the feelings associated with not leaving the house at all in March and April of 2020. It is also about how many people's mental health struggles were and still are impacted by the ongoing pandemic.
Ritual (sick), 2019; HD Video (14:46)
Ritual (sick) documents different forms of mothering. In one instance, a mother is searching through ritual, in order to come to terms with the loss of her son to suicide.
Effervescently Meaningless, 2019; HD Video (2:31)
Effervescently Meaningless questions how relationships can be continually destabilized. Anyone familiar with the 69 Love Songs will relate to the feelings of cynicism and levity that can underscore relationality.
Training Wheels, 2019; HD Video (3:28)
Training Wheels is a multivalent ode. At once an expression of loss, and a panegyric for Montrealers, suffering through another winter (which only produces more potholes-a cyclist's nightmare). At the same time, the piece is about problems of perception and magical thinking. It is dedicated to Andi's brother Eric Gilker (1979-2012), who removed Andi's training wheels from her bike when she was a young cyclist, and pushed her forth.